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Oh my.. how long has it been... 0_o oh hoh two months only la.... geez alot has happened to me... what shall i say.... darn.. eerytime i want to write something my mind goes blank... dammit THINK!! okok chill.... k i've benn away from home for a long time... problably the longest time being not at home... oh well you know worried parents they get mad when you dun stay home or never come home... know i know why why parents dun let thier kids out late often... but hey its fun... now i knoe the meaning of rebellion... cool... wait.. it aint cool... darn... leading a bad example... oh well whats done is done... ive done pretty much the bad doy stuff... drink, smoke, stay up late, rebel, check out chicks, said alot of fowl language, and... oh my.. too many to name...
oh well.. there's more to come... he he... dammit so many things... my brain cant keep up... though for me ok i admit i got lotsa problems with my parnts.. they just keep quiet... damn... i swear too much too... some friends say i'm already living in hell... to those godly people... no offense thought.. but.. i've told a friend who's a christian, said that i'm a bad influence, a bad person.. worst it comes to my ears that i'm labeled a bad friend... damn that went straight to the heart... shall i feel convicted? am i not supposed to be who i am? am i to follow my own instincts or ask for guidance?... i feel liek i'm blinded by something... like i dont know whats the truth... or who to believe... in my opionion... i trust myself.. follow my instincts... ask if i want to or needed... and maybe trust my god... which i walways do.. thigs do happen for a reason you know,,, its not easy being a good boy all the time...
Twas never easy... who ever though it was... unless you never saw and tasted the bad stuff... its nice to get a taste of it but its never good to get addicted or want to do it again... humans... can never understand... i can never understand too... to those bummers who read this and got offended.. well aint that sad... i've seen much of the harsh reality and human lies... i've yet to uncover much of the truth... am i been living a lie?... or am i a lie?... hmmm... i still don't understand.. lies lies and more lies.. to understand a lie and a truth... you need to taste the lie to know the truth... thats a fact i know...